I want to go back.
I want to go back to where
a fight with a sibling was over and done with by the time cartoons started on
Saturday morning.
I want to go back to
summers of riding my bike for hours and not for exercise.
I want to go back to
throwing mud at wood doors of barns like snowballs at garage doors.
I want to go back to when I
wanted glasses because I thought they were cool and not because I need them to
actually see.
I want to go back to when
boys were just plain gross and didn’t ruin people’s lives.
I want to go back to when I
wasn’t allowed to drink pop.
I want to go back to when
it was funny to belch.
I want to go back to
spelling tests every Friday.
I want to go back to when I
thought I shouldn’t have to wear a shirt because the boys didn’t have to.
I want to go back to
worrying about my SAT’s.
I want to go back to being
able to see shapes of things in the clouds.
I want to go back to being
afraid of thunder and not lightning.
I want to go back to when
cussing was fun to do if you didn’t get caught.
I want to go back to saving
a seat for a friend on the bus even if he or she was a complete bitch and didn’t
sit with me.
I want to go back to riding
the bus.
I want to go back and learn
how to play the piano or guitar with passion - not the flute with NO passion.
I want to go back to
crayons.
I want to go back to
writing in a diary.
I want to go back to
laughing and not being able to stop.
I want to go back to being
a latchkey kid.
I want to go back to being
too young to drive and it not mattering because there was/is no place to go.
I want to go back to where
I forgot what really happened.
I want to go back to when a
boyfriend meant simply saying he was my boyfriend and nothing else.
I want to go back and
apologize to people who really deserved an apology.
I want to go back and play
board games all day during the summer.
I want to go back and have
my first kiss again…with someone different.
I want to go back to when
tears were there after a cut knee and not always at the verge of falling down
my face.
I want to go back to
believing in love.
I want to go back to
picking flowers.
I want to go back to where
it doesn’t hurt to think about certain things.
I want to go back and wear
a hat more often in the winter.
I want to go back…